Little leave

decided
all or nothing
refused to make believe
scared little mouse
kicked in with
Urgency
getting
old
fast
Despite better advice
I listened
greedy heart
the choice to leave
The gleaming girl inside
boastful arrogant entitled
Plain
a choice?
to go on looking
for a favour
I knew
The Time was fantastic.
To hustle it enticing
take the bargain
all of the excuses
the correctness needed
to back
neglectful ways
blinded by decision
Fuelled by assumption
limbo into the gutter
dedicated duty
unwillingness and permanence
pregnant with worry
Impeding observations
channelled with energy
mindfulness
gratitude
destiny
I became heavier as
The buzzer set
Undeserved
independence correlated
value plummeting
I became no more charitable
and intensely
rigid
Unwilling
Wherever able
a true song
From the anger of those I Did wrong
don’t see the matter
the heat from threatening the coals below
possibility
stability
Everything
the vice creaks
If I squeeze pants over my long johns
Will it look like I’m doing more work?